Heart's desire

It has been such a struggle lately... There is soooo much I'd like to add to this blog. ("More?? You've got to be kidding!") Most days all I really want to be doing is reading, research, exploration, observation, think, pray, meditate, write, create, etc. For every one post here there are 10 more that I would like to be working on. I don't do well being tied down to a schedule or structure. More of a free spirit, go with the inspiration, let it happen type person.

However, I have 2 jobs, 3 kids, and being single I have all the domestic chores as well. Kinda squeezes out much time for this.

But I really feel passionate about it.

I don't want to be like my great grandfather who was a painter and was so passionate about it that he didn't do so well providing for his family.

My heart is bursting and breaking over this dilemna. I was praying about it this morning and I believe that God told me I would see my heart's desire come to reality. It seems too fantastic to be believe right now... what with my current financial responsibilities and mammoth debt. I believe him though, and I'm going to pursue it.

I don't know if it will come in the form of sponsorship, a trust, some kind of sale of my writing, an inheiratance. I'm not sure. But I'm gonna reach for it. What do I have to lose?? :)