connection shamekshun

I work for a company that constantly preaches "connection."

Last year i put a lot of effort into building up my personal relationships, particularly with men. But those relationships have kind of drifted for various reasons and i find myself not wanting to put the energy into building up my connections with men again. Why? Well let me try and describe all my excuses...

• men are boring
• men don't have an interest in true connection. i have to chase them. i do all the work.
• men are busy
• men talk about stuff, and want to do stuff, that i have no interest in
• women are much easier to get along with, and more caring
• relationships take time and effort, and i'd rather be learning or writing
• much of the time i am not in the mental/emotional state to focus on connecting. it takes me effort to get out of my head, and often when i have the opportunity for connection i'm too tired or too grouchy.
• everybody i can think of connecting with annoys me in some way, and i don't want to address those issues with them. i'd rather stay away. there's no perfect friend.
• it's always going to be more work and aggravation than its worth. the cost is too high and the benefits are too low. so why even try?
• i'll never find anyone i can feel safe enough to share the deepest secrets and parts of my heart with.
• there's no chance for the fun of romance in the relationship.

Is that enough excuses to get me off the hook??? can i please put this silly quest to rest?